i'm just a total failure. Was down during monday's and friday's [today] choir practice. yeaaaaaa. i'm sorry to those that i dao-ed. i had no mood. you guys must be wondering what's wrong with me.

Monday, i heard something during choir practice. My friends saw andrew and sara together in j8. So it's true that he's attached again after a week or so? I thought that I can accept it. I thought that I can handle it. I thought that I can face it. Somehow, I just felt so so so sad. I was super moody and stuff. I didnt know that I actually showed it out. Some friends sms-ed me and cheered me up. They said that I looked very sad. Thanks people [:

Friday, the mugs. Yesyes, the mugs. I heard many many many many many many negative comments. My sister kept telling me that it's very ugly when i reached home. I'm sorry chiang lin. I thought about it. It's so unfair to Chiang Lin. People, you see, it's her effort. It's her hard work. She did her very best. So did the rest. So if you guys wanna blame, just blame me. Blame me for not having any ideas. Blame me for not thinking of a design. Blame me for not doing anything. The quality of the mug aint that good ehh? The cost price is $5 plus man! I knew that Mrs Wong's idea of making a mug wont be successful. I should have stopped her. Aiyaaa...

Someone, just shoot me dead.

And I'm thinking that I'm very useless lahs. I'm sorry people for letting you guys down. Maybe I should just step down as a chairman of uvphs? There are much better people to lead choir right? I'm not a good chairman? Things will just go wrong with me around? Maybe it will be better without me? Just tell me people... I'm sorry.

and thanks yiwei :] i really felt like running away from reality by leaving this world. but what you said touched me yea?

I went to j8 with Xinyi after choir. Cheer up too kays? Why is everything so zhun? I saw his friends at the MRT station there. Me and Xinyi walked to Long John Silver but I wanted to return his nametag to his friends. So we walked back, he was there already. Xinyi helped me to return his nametag to him. Thanks. Yeaaaaaa. and the uncle busking there played/sang carn help falling in love with you. Oh man, it's so saddening lahs. But I do feel better reutrning his name tag to him.

Hmmm... Maybe his life will be better without me. Maybe the world will be better without me too. I dont have strength to continue anymore. What should i do people?