I didnt go to school today.

i wonder will you read my blog? maybe yes. maybe no.

been thinking a lot the whole night. you broke up with me again. histories repeated itself. i thought we were happy? and we still can be together for a long long time.

there were times which were niceeeeee and sweet. good memories (: but there were times which were bad too. i cried a lot in this relationship. start to end? im still crying now.

maybe because months after months, i love you more and more. i put more and more hopes into this relationship. all of my high hopes are dashed.

i asked if you still love me, you said you dont know. im glad that you didnt say NO. but im sad that you didnt said YES. i praying for a miracle; that we can be together again.

in this relationship, i learned what's love. i got so worried when you're still not back from taiwan. sent sms-es and made calls. i went to get the fudge [which i forgotten to take back from australia] from bedok from my aunt who just came back from australia. i wanna thank you for what you did for me in the past too. they were sweet.

i was super worried and upset when you failed to reply my messages for the past 2 days. i couldnt sleep. you told that you're sick. but somehow, felt something is wrong. it was very painful.

i love the way you loved me. but now, you love me no more? or do you still love me? haiz... can you reply my messages please? ty.

i read throught our msn chat history. i started crying again. i found these.

what you said to me.

10/6/200 9:35:40 PM
[A][N][D][R][E][W] ; drew ; I LOVE YOU TOO(:
[À][Ú][Ð][R][È][Ý] ; drey ; I LOVE YOU(:
i thought it through last night
10/6/2006 9:36:02 PM
[A][N][D][R][E][W] ; drew ; I LOVE YOU TOO(:
[À][Ú][Ð][R][È][Ý] ; drey ; I LOVE YOU(:
if i ever go, no, i will not break-up with you. we can still be tgt what! just tht we are in different plaCE?
10/6/2006 9:36:23 PM
[A][N][D][R][E][W] ; drew ; I LOVE YOU TOO(:
[À][Ú][Ð][R][È][Ý] ; drey ; I LOVE YOU(:
i tell you man, i swear, i will never break-up with you lor! no matter wht...

6th of october . our first month. it's only 2 days to our 4th month. and things changed. it's scary. but i know deep down inside, i still love you a lot a lot a lot!

i hope we can still be together again(: but if cannot, i hope we still can be friends. like what you said, we can still be friends. maybe good friends too. hmmm. takecare(:


From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart

"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go?

And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you know, I still miss you somehow

From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two
I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

"Baby," I said, "please stay.
Give our love a chance for one more day"
We could have worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about

But you put a dart
Through my dreams through my heart
And I'm back where I started again
Never thought it would end

From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two
I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

You promised yourself
But to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear
Still I wish you were here

From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?


to my friends and family. thanks(:

edited/ 2.40pm
sinyi, jiayou too(:
read sinyi's blog. teared again. thanks for the chat too (:

im freaking hungry. yet i had no appetite =X



I'm sitting here alone up in my room
And thinking about the times that we've been through (oh my love)
I'm looking at a picture in my hand
Trying my best to understand
I really want to know what we did wrong
With a love that felt so strong
If only you were here tonight
I know that we could make it right

I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
'Cause you're the only one within my heart
I was born to make you happy
Always and forever you and me
That's the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy

I know I've been a fool since you've been gone
I'd better give it up and carry on (oh my love)
'Cause living in a dream of you and me
Is not the way my life should be
I don't want to cry a tear for you
So forgive me if I do
If only you were here tonight
I know that we could make it right

I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
'Cause you're the only one within my heart
I was born to make you happy
Always and forever you and me
That's the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy

I'll do anything, I'll give you my world
I'll wait forever, to be your girl
Just call out my name, and I will be there
Just to show you how much I care (alright)
I was Born To Make You Happy

I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
'Cause you're the only one within my heart
I was born to make you happy
Always and forever you and me
That's the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy