i learned something from pastor richard toh's sermon today. he said,
dont dwell on the past.

hmmm... i still miss him a lot a lot but i will try to forget him de bah. yeaaaaaa. i wonder how long would i take to forget him... i guess it's hard. rahs~ whenever my handphone rings, vibrates or anything; call or sms. i just wish it's him. i hope it's him. but... it will never happen bah. right?

thank you people for all your help and support. my family, friends and even people who dont know me and i dont know them.THANKS A LOT. i will be strong and smile everyday :] will i be able to? hahs.

from sweetie's blog. so sweet. thanks [:


hmm. then was quite worried about sweetie when i left for camp. damn. i really see the resemblence of all relationships. is that how they work? hahas. reminded me about myself. but i guess, i no longer feel much. perhaps camp made me too busy to think about anything else or i really didn't want to miss out on moments of life by standing on the spot and not moving on, like the camp chief told us [to cherish each moment because it would never be the same again].so, there. SWEETIE: be strong okae? i'm glad that you've cried it out rather than keep it to yourself and end up doing something silly or something. don't try to think about the possibilities for you to revive this relationship anymore okae? tell yourself, it's impossible, it's over and it's his loss. because you're a nice girl and you've gave your everything trying. but it didn't work out, perhaps you two weren't meant to be, or it was just made this way to teach you lessons you have to learn, before you finally find the 'one'. i know you've put in alot and when you see it all comes to waste, you feel that it's unfair ba[like on your blog] hmm. i think, there is no right or wrong in 'love'[that is unless he cheats on you or do something else more horrible]. if he likes someone else, it cannot be helped, just like how you liked him in the first place. and it can't be blamed because maybe he did put in the same amount of effort but you can't feel it or it wasn't enough for you? have vengeful thoughts, think about the past, be angry, cry and make yourself feel better now. but calm yourself down after that and think about the lessons you've learnt before you step out again okae? i know it's hard for you. but you and i know you can do it, slowly. 'cause there's a solution for every situation in life no matter how complexed or impossible-to-solve it may seem. yep, and i'm glad you know that you should never give up the good things in live for such stuffs. (: learn from it and grow okae? your friends, us, will always be there for you if you need us to be [even when you do not need us to be xD.]. i'm on 24/7 hotline [as long as i hear the phone ringing]! LOVES